2 years

2 years

730 days since you’ve left this earth.

741 since I’ve last laid eyes on you!

Heard your voice!

Physically touched you!!

I miss you so damn much. I use to remember saying

“I can’t imagine life without you!”

Well now I know.

You’ve missed so much.

You would be so proud of Hattie!!

I know you would have came to visit me in Vegas if you could....

You would be so proud of me!!

You always were my number one fan!!

It’s gotten a little bit easier.

I still cry at the thought of you gone.

I still run to you when I’m lost except

I don’t have to chase you around

nowadays your always in the same place

on the same hill. Rain or shine.

I have so much to tell you

and all these things I want to show you.

But then I realize you always see.

You’re always with me.

I’ve got the necklace to prove it.

Out of all the terrible things that came like a domino effect after you left me.

There was one positive thing

that came with it.

I started to heal.

I know I never would have done it

without losing you.

I hate that it had to take this to do it.

But

I’m so thankful!

I know in my heart

there will always be a void.

I will never stop missing you.

I will never stop wishing you would clunk through that door!

Hell I’d give up everything I have.

Just for one more minute with you!!

But I will know

No matter where I go or what I do. I will always have you by my side.

I never have to feel alone.

All the times I felt like I had no body are finally gone.

I never have to feel that way again.

Thank you for turning this mess into a beautiful blessing.

My life will never be the same without you!

For the good or for the bad!

Never again!

Until we meet again

I will love you until the end of time!

Love your one and only Granddaughter

-Rachel