It’s amazing when you finally put that last piece of a puzzle in you’ve been trying to finish for forever. So satisfying knowing you finally concurred it and you completed it!! Piece by piece you managed to get through it. Like king of the mountain... or just a simple feeling of accomplishment. Either way it’s finished. It all came together. It’s whole again! Done!
Healing is a lot like putting together a puzzle.....But you don’t exactly know how many pieces you have and you definitely don’t know when you will be finished because it’s actually kinda difficult at times! Sometimes your missing pieces. Other times they’ve been beat up and the edges are wore off. And sometimes... well sometimes you just give up and say you’ll worry about it later... that all made sense to me today...
I had the craziest thing happen to me laying in bed. It was not quite like putting together the final piece of the puzzle but like 3/4 done. I literally couldn’t sleep. My adrenaline was pumping a little bit. I felt like I could have ran a marathon. I remember thinking stop it it’s probably all the chaos of the world right now going on. After walking down the strip today and seeing stores boarded up and closing early in fear of the looters vandalizing the area.... (Ding) but then it came full circle... and I had an “ah ha” moment.
If you’ve been reading any of my posts you might have gathered I’m on a journey to be a better real’er’ (as I say) version of myself. Slowly peeling back the layers of a not so pretty version of myself I don’t wanna be anymore. Getting rid of limiting beliefs, learning forgiveness, letting go of what no longer serves me, and dumping the baggage I’ve been carrying for years!
When you slowly start picking yourself apart on a self development journey and finally understand why you are the way you are. You start to realize things you don’t even know you keep holding on to that are causing you chaos in your own life. I’d like to call that “the baggage”!! The useless crap we resent, hate, loath, frankly would love to erase about ourselves that we carry around denying it’s an issue for years UNTIL you finally realize it is an issue and you fess up and face it! That’s when it wont be an issue anymore because you choose to deal with it. Face it head on and let it go! Once you finally get that courage to finally be honest with yourself. You can then piece it all together. Your puzzle will finally be complete again. You can find the best version of yourself you want to be again. Maybe it’s the person you use to be or maybe it’s a completely different changed person. Either way it’s one step closer to putting the pieces together you deserve to. Working through things that no longer serve you so you can move on. You can live the life you’ve always dreamed of. To be free of negative things that’s we’re serving any purpose in your life anymore.
Lately with everything going on in the world, I’ve been thinking a lot about change. The words that keep coming to my mind are “be the change you wish to see, after all it starts with you!” It’s soo true!! No one can help you heal besides you!! You have to be that first person to finally get through your thick skull!! You have to stop lying to yourself!! You have to be honest with yourself and say it’s time for a change. Instead of living this life that no longer serves me. It no longer makes you happy. You don’t wake up every day super excited to seize the day! When you can admit that and look yourself in the mirror and say this isn’t who I want to be anymore. How did I get here? And how do I get out? Until you admit you need a change it won’t work! An addict once told me “until you truly want to change for yourself you will never quit.” And he’s 100% right! You have to do it for you!! You want to want it for yourself not anyone else Or else it won’t work! You have to admit it and you have to want it!! It won’t be easy!! But I promise, once you start putting all those pieces of your puzzle together it will feel better and better every time! The most rewarding feeling is looking back on how far you’ve come. Until you get the ultimate feeling of finally being complete again!
I challenge you to look yourself in the mirror today and be honest with yourself about what you’ve been lying about for years! Make the changes you want to see in yourself! It doesn’t happen overnight, but if you put in the effort and seek to heal yourself it’s the most rewarding journey you will ever go on!!
Like I always say, “the best is yet to come!”
Xoxoxo
-Rachel
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